I am sitting in my living room in silence. I have been meaning to post for a couple weeks now. Things just get in the way or I prefer to be doing something else. It has been months, yes, months, since my last post. Not for any negative reasons. Simply because my time has been filled up with other things. As I type that sentence I hear my little guy getting out of his bed. His room is above me. We will see if I even finish this post.

I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions. I don’t believe in the idea that you have to wait until a certain day of the year to change something about yourself. I feel, if you are truly serious, that day can start right then and there when the urge to change is conceived within your mind and heart. The closest thing to one I would be making is to get back on track with blogging. And see, I am starting now, December 27th. Because there is no reason I must wait until January 1st 2014!

I also believe if you set grand lofty goals flippantly that you may be setting yourself up for failure. I think it is better to take baby steps. Progress into what you want to change. I remember when I wanted to nurse my little guy. I initially set out that I would try it. I knew in my heart I wanted to nurse him more than anything, but I also knew, due to research, that a lot of women fail at it for a myriad of reasons. I tried it, it seemed to work. I changed my goal to I will give it 3 months and go from there. I can surely do 3 months. 3 months came and went. I was nursing without batting an eye. I added to my goal. At least half a year. 6 months. I can do this! Once I hit 6 months I knew I could finish up the rest of the year. I had moments of weakness during the remaining 6 months. I thought about quitting. I was tired. I wanted Jason to get out of bed with him. I wanted some freedom. But I would look back on those baby steps I set for myself and how far I had come. So I kept on pushing ahead. We made it over a year!

Changes, goals, resolutions, can start at any moment. They don’t have to be on this made up day of the year. If you see something in yourself that you want to change, start right then. Make it small if that is appropriate, but don’t wait. I lost two people in my family in 2013. Three since the end of 2012. It was a tough holiday season without them. It was weird to not have them around. I was able to focus my energies on my family and Jacky. He was very into Christmas and Santa this year. It was a needed distraction. An almost 3 year old is always good for that. Two of them died from smoking related diseases. I don’t smoke. But I mention that because for me, I feel it goes hand in hand with the idea of being able to change something anytime you’re ready. To stop that bad habit you have been meaning to stop or to start a new healthy one. We all have our demons and we all have things we would like to better about ourselves. Maybe the sooner you do it, the better the outcome? Maybe you don’t have to wait around for a day in the year that is notorious for setting people up to fail!

With that  I am off to hop on my shiny new Reformer (My Christmas gift from my husband and son!) I will also probably change a diaper, pour some milk, and make some toast, before I even make it into my Pilates room. Although, being busy with my son, is something I wouldn’t ever change! I hope the Holidays have brought joy, laughter, happiness, and lots of smiles for you and yours.

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